TIME DOES NOT FLY WHEN YOU ARE NOT HAVING FUN!

I can't believe that it's been nearly 4 months since I started this. It's been crazy at my house and I haven't had much time to write, or even stop by my friends sites.

So to update you:

My mom was diagnosed with MULTIPLE MYELOMA, which is Cancer of the plasma cells. That has been really tough for me to stomach. I went down a few weeks ago to help take care of her, but J & the kids weren't able to go (she has to be in a fairly "germ-free" environment), so it was hard being so alone there. My sister does live next door to them, so that was nice to go over there every once in a while and "get away". Her first set of chemo didn't take. They are now trying a more "aggressive" chemo, which makes her tired and sick. Not as sick as the cancer, but still sick and anxious. I'm having to get used to her personality change. She is such a Godly woman, that to see her in pain and suffering is really sad!

I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago. You know that verse in Bible, "God will not give you more than you can handle" (somewhere in 1 Cor. I believe)? I'm starting to wonder. This came just 6 weeks after receiving the cancer diagnosis from my mom. It has been tough and scary and trying...but I'm finally seeing the light! I think...

Financially we are strapped and we haven't spoken to my in-laws in 6 months. Things are just so slow around here and stressful. But I'm seeing that God is getting us thru. J went to work yesterday, feeling the presence of the Lord with him all day. The only presence I felt, were my kids...but that is because I'm not open like I should be. I've just picked up my Beth Moore Study on David again. It's good. I can stomach David better than I can Job (which was our lesson in Sunday School this weekend). I love David. I always have...he just understands me, or I understand him. Whichever, when I read him, I don't feel so alone!

BLOGGING

I'm really not sure why I decided to do this! I already have a blog with xanga, but this seemed a bit more "mature" ... guess we'll see!

I have nothing exciting to write about. I'm tired and dreading taking my 4 y/o to a BALLET birthday party. Not that I think it won't be fun, but because it's at 10am till noon. I just want to sleep in, People! But I know that she will enjoy it. And the good news is that J doesn't have to work tomorrow (that is my wonderful husband of 6 years...we've actually been married for nearly 8, but the first 2 were so rocky, we won't consider EITHER of us "wonderful"). Since he doesn't hafta work, that means he can stay home with our eldest and watch cartoons till their brains drain out of the ears! That will be a fun mess to come home to, don't you think?!

Hopefully blogging on here will be different than my xanga. I tend to be whiney & complainy on there. All of those people know and have known me for years. Maybe I can be HAPPY and CHIPPER here...who knows! Maybe stars will shoot out of my ears & eyeballs (let's hope those are the only places, or we'll have more than just brains to clean up tomorrow!).

I guess I'm in a weird mood, b/c we just watched A DEATH AT A FUNERAL on PPV. It was HILARIOUS, but something about that British comedy puts me in a strange mood. And I guess it could be the month old CREAM SHERRY and CONCORD WINE that I drained right after supper. mmm. mmm. GOOD! I got it when my SIL & Tara went to the STONE HILL WINERY in Branson last month. The sherry has aged a bit and breathed. It isn't so POTENT as it was when we first opened the bottle. It's very good. We're gonna hafta go back there and get some more, I think! Any takers???

I should prol'y head off to bed ... except, J is playing FABEL on the 360, so he wants me to stay alert and watch the clock, so we can watch the SOUP on E! at 11:30. Not sure that me OR the sherry will last that long...